#068

[prodigalvampire]

A few years ago, Harry Dresden was attempting to find away to control a part of me that has thus far proven uncontrollable, at least completely.  I...don't even know how to ask for what I'm asking, so I guess we'll just discuss, if it's your persuasion.  I need help from, I don't know, an enchanter, or a wizard, or a ...something, someone who can do magic.  No magic from my world seems to help. Maybe someone else's can.

If you're a skilled magician, or wizard, or enchanter, or...whatever, or even if you don't fall under those guidelines and you practice some sort of alchemy or whatever that I don't know about, I need your help.

I'm willing to pay.

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[neurotoxicity]

You did try to feed on the woman he loves.

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[prodigalvampire]

And I'll never forgive myself.

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[neurotoxicity]

In his mind you represent someone who terrorized Shalimar for a long time. He wants to protect her but at the same time he doesn't want to control her friendships. It's a difficult thing to balance.

And why would he matter in this instance?

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[prodigalvampire]

I...suppose that makes sense.

Because he cares about you and I'd be eating you. I wouldn't expect him to understand.

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[neurotoxicity]

It does.

No, I doubt he would. I'm not obligated to tell him. Though I'm not sure if I'd be able to not feed myself after.

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[prodigalvampire]

You shouldn't hide things from him. Trust me, if you're involved with someone and all you do is hide things, they find out. Usually at the worst possible moment.

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[neurotoxicity]

I never agreed to any of this.

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[prodigalvampire]

Do you want it?

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[neurotoxicity]

I'm still trying to figure that out.

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[prodigalvampire]

Does he know that?

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[neurotoxicity]

Know what?

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[prodigalvampire]

That you're still trying to figure out whether or not you want any of that.

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[neurotoxicity]

I don't know.

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[prodigalvampire]

You don't know if you've told him? Wow. You know, I really don't like the guy, but leading him on like that is just...well, I'm not an authority by any means, but it just seems wrong.

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[neurotoxicity]

I'm not leading him on.

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[prodigalvampire]

Well, if he thinks it's one thing and you think it's another, then yeah. You kind of are.

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[neurotoxicity]

I don't think it's another thing.

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[prodigalvampire]

You talk in circles, do you know that? You say you never wanted the title, and yet that's what he's given you. That what it is to him. And if you don't think it's something else, then you must be okay with it being that.

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[neurotoxicity]

No, you simply don't listen well. I said I was still trying to figure out if this was what I wanted. As in still trying to figure out if it was a good idea. It's probably not.

But that's beside the point. You could feed from me and it wouldn't hurt. I would need to find out of I'd have to feed after myself though and I would need to make sure I didn't kill anyone.

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[prodigalvampire]

I don't really feel like paying it forward, Ivy. Maybe you hungry isn't exactly a good outcome.

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[neurotoxicity]

It wouldn't make me anymore hungry than I am. But if you were to accidentally take too much I might need to feed.

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[prodigalvampire]

And I can't promise I wouldn't.

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[neurotoxicity]

You're also not certain about this. I'm not going to let someone whose uncertain and afraid feed on me. I'd prefer to not end up dead.

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[prodigalvampire]

I would prefer not myself.

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[neurotoxicity]

Let me know if you ever decide to not be afraid. The irony of me saying that doesn't escape me.